Hooponopono

 Hooponopono, ancient Hawaian practice asks for forgiveness.

I am sorry. I was born in the wrong place. I disturb the peace with my presence. I am not like you. I am really very sorry.

Please forgive me. I should have died before being born or atleast before growing up. I hurt my family , the society with my presence.

Thank you for letting me live, for letting me survive. But I plead with you, let me die, a quick and easy death. My soul will thank you for the peace.

I love you. Believe me I do. Inspite of giving you trouble, inspite of not being like you, I do love you. Peace be with you.

Darkness

Darkness
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A small flash of light
Shows all happiness that
Can be yours, but then
The flash goes, leaving memories
Of that small glimpse of
Happiness, that could
Have been yours, not yours though.
It was a mirage, not yours
Never ever yours. So why
Enjoy that glimpse,
Which gives false hope
Where there was none.
Darkness will always be with me
Giving no false hope,
not waking desires that give pain.
Leave me alone in my darkness
Where I will have peace
For peace, not happiness
Is what I want. No light needed
In my life, bright or flashes
I love my darkness.

my destination

My Destination
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I love my mobile phone
I keep looking at it
For a new message from you
Or I keep reading your old messages
Whenever I pine for you
It gives me kisses and hugs
From you, your heart
It is the only connection
I have with you,
The proof of your existence
In my life,
The path to my ultimate destination
That is you, you, only you
Sometimes I shudder to think
Of the possibility of my dependence,
Which may lead me to love
The journey more than the destination.

Acceptance or Resignation

Acceptance or Resignation
The hot sun stings my face,
The hot breeze brushes against
My skin, burning it.
Hopes of a cool breeze
Or a refreshing drizzle brought
By the dark clouds on the horizon, have been
Blown away by the hot winds.
Now I am getting used to the hot waves,
My skin actually finds it soothing
Maybe  the cool breeze will now
Bruise my skin , and my heart is now
Scared of the clouds on the horizon.
Is it acceptance or resignation?
I really wonder .

The love nest

The Love Nest
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Last time we met
When you opened your heart to me
I wanted time to freeze
For us to be together... Forever.
If not forever, at least for some precious moments,
Let me shelter you from
The big bad world
Where you will sleep in my arms
And wake up in my arms.
Comfort you, love you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true.
For those precious moments,
For those targets of happiness
Which may happen, may not happen,
 I will build a haven, a love nest
  And the doors will be
Forever open for you,
Waiting for you
Because you are my chosen one.

The greatest Pain

The greater pain
It is painful enough to be hurt,
But it is more painful
To expose our hurt to others.
It is painful enough
For our hurt to be exposed,
But it is more painful
To see them secretly mock our hurt.
It is painful enough to lose
The love of our life.
But it is more painful to be ignored
First and then lose love.
It is painful to lose our sanity,
But it is most painful
To be aware and experience
Each tiny step of losing our mind,
Of ebbing of our sanity.
That awareness is definitely
The greatest pain of all.

A request to Baba

Always with me, you ,
Walking with me, listening to me
You know me in and out
Can't you see the pain
I endure night and day.


What gives others pleasure
Gives me pain
What gives them ecstasy
Gives me gloom
What gives them a feel of heaven
Is hell for me.
What is death for others
May be liberation for me
For This life for me is worse
Than death.
Each breath for me
Is a living death.


Freedom from this living hell
Is what I want,
It is not a desire,
It is a necessity.
I ask not for pleasure
But for an escape from pain.


The dying tiger looked at you
With tearful eyes*
And u gave him liberation
I have the same look in my eyes
The same tears  appeal to you
How long, my God,
 Till you see my pain?
How long do I wait oh God
How long till you set me free?


( * - Sai Baba's story tells about a dying tiger who was brought to Baba. Baba looked at the tiger with sympathetic eyes and liberated it from its dreadful existence.)